Tuesday 23 September
The postive thinking thing works! Started the day with an hours session in the gym - very nice. Did 25 mins on the treadmill, 15 on the cross trainer and then worked my upper arms with some weights. The whole body workout was good.
Was quite productive at work - suggested some ideas. And then i got in contact with some tv companies (because I'm desperate to get out my current job).
Went to lunch with a colleague who's leaving tomorrow. She's just got married and realises there's more to life than work. I realise there is more to life than work theoretically, but practically I cant seem to make the men thing work...
But lunch was nice and at her leaving do later that evening, I looked around at my colleagues and thought 'at least my life isnt as bad as yours.'
I'm young (ish), talented in several areas and optimistic rather than negative like them. I know that I will find a man eventually and be happy, but they are so work-obssessed and negative they will never be happy. And thats sad.
They go through the working day being miserable, rarely get out in the evenings and on nights when they do they turn on charm to women in a desperado way. A couple really flirted with me tonight. They are 30-35 yr old men, quite ugly becoz of the long days and boozy lunches/nights and completely desperate. Shoot me before I get like that!
Tonight I did the flirt and destroy tactic to boost my ego. Had the news ed of the daily star sunday eating out of my hand. But I didnt comply.
At the end of the day, I like myself more than I like them. I left the leaving do at about 930pm, went to asda on the way and bought myself a mini bottle of champagne.
I'm drinking it now. Love my own company sometimes.
Just goes to show, even news editors of national papers are not happy.
But I am and I am gonna stay that way. Go me! I
ts gonna be a busy couple of days at showbiz parties, but I'm mentally and physically strong.